Saturday, 17 October 2009

Day Four: Evening Peace?

A reasonable day. Kept busy, that seems to be the thing to do. Had Jake with me all day, he drives me potty sometimes, but I love him to bits. He even put up with wondering around supermarket after supermarket just so I didn't have to come back "home." He's got pretty good at pointing out potential new partners too. It's funny, I've lost a fair bit of weight now. I also dress smartly now and I've started to notice the occasional (and I mean occasional) woman smiling at me. A huge boost to my mood believe me. I hope the mood stays like this, not overwhelmingly happy but not miserable.

Day Four: Dont Start As You Mean To Go On

What is this with my head, more torturous dreams followed by tossing and turning at 6.00 am. Not making huge headways in the moving on department. Had breakfast and need to think of something to do today. There's no structure to the weekend and that's something that is important to me. I had to speak to the bank yesterday, been putting off the chat about mortgage arrears and repossesion for a while. It's done now ! Sent a text to ex half an hour ago informing her they will start proceedings in January, followed it with a text straight after saying no need to text back. I'm angry with her and I think that's a really good thing. I'm hoping anger will help replace those other feelings. And let's face it my life has been turned upside down, I've got a right to be angry. I now need to figure out what to do today.

-- Posted from my iPhone